I just found the most precious website. The devotional for tomorrow spoke volumes to the longing in my soul:
December 10 – The Quiet Time
There may be many times when I reveal nothing, command nothing, give no guidance. But your path is clear, and your task, to grow daily more and more into the knowledge of Me. That this quiet time with Me will enable you to do.
I may ask you to sit silent before Me, and I may speak no word that you could write. All the same that waiting with Me will bring comfort and Peace. Only friends who understand and love each other can wait silent in each other’s presence.
And it may be that I shall prove our friendship by asking you to wait in silence while I rest with you, assured of your Love and understanding. So wait, so love, so joy.
“My lover said to me, “Rise up, my beloved, my fair one, and come away.” Song of Songs 2:10 (NLT)
Could it be?
The King of Kings wants to love me because He wants to, not because He has to. Not because He’s God and that’s His job, but because He wants to.
I do not think that word means what you think it means!