I have been wanting to be a midwife for a long time. I even seriously thought about changing my major in college a couple of semesters before student teaching to nursing!
I’ve never gotten very far with this, what with getting a job in my field to get out of debt, then getting married and having babies of my own…
But it’s always been there. My sister tells me the first thing I said to her when she came to visit after having Brielle was, “I had to have an epidural! How am I ever going to be a midwife when I can’t even birth naturally?!”
An opportunity arose to take a midwife’s assistant class with an acquaintance of mine. As a super special bonus, a couple of my favorite people were already signed up. It took a while to get Kevin to see the wisdom of attending this class. He initially was adamant that it was not the right time in our lives and I needed to make our family our priority. It was hard for him to be at peace with my making this commitment and buying the books but he came around a couple days before the deadline to sign up.
All systems go.
And every time I thought, as I would go about my day, “Oh! I need to sign up for the class!” My Holy Spirit would whisper, “Be still and know that I am God.” or ” Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
So I waited. The next day. And the day of the deadline. Talking things over with my sweet Father, knowing He would come around to see things my way.
And now, here it is three days past the deadline. I’m not signed up for the class. I feel so dejected. I feel like it’s a chance I won’t have again. I feel like I’ll never be anything else than what I am right now.
I’ve been complaining about it too. And I hear my sweet Father say, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
And so I wait.
3 thoughts on “Plans for me”
Waiting is so hard! I had to wait for a very long time to be able to do what I wanted to do!!!! I am now there doing it! It will come, I promise!!! However, patients runs thin when you feel like you aren't getting what you need!! Many prayers to you as you wait!
Enjoy your babies. When the time is right you will have an opening. I understand how frustrating it can be. Will keep you in pray, Gin
Call RIGHT now!!!