Daybook –26 October

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Outside my window… dark–I am writing this at one in the morning. Last I checked it was chilly and raining. Again.

I am thinking… how I’d really like to trade lives with someone else…and then feel guilty about it.

I am thankful for… my dear ever lovin’ husband. He loves me at my worst and adores me at my best. And I was not kind to him today.

I am wearing… Grey pants from LLBean, a see-throughish light weight palest pink sweater from Gap, and an Old Navy dove grey sweater coat–bought 2 out of 3 pieces second hand for a song.

I am remembering… I am remembering…

I am going… if all goes as planned, to a children’s museum with my cousin and her kids

I am reading… not pictured: Mind Siege–a must read for anyone wondering what in the world is going on these days. Finished Tears in a Bottle–highly recommend;

I am hoping… Monday will be a much better day than Sunday; Sunday was NOT a good day.

I am creating… a poem to help me grieve my grandmother

On my mind…marriage and all it’s wonderful and dreadful complexities. Today my ever lovin’ husband sternly told me, “It’s SO hard being married to a woman!”

From the learning rooms… the usual–books, and more books and “Please, Mama, can we read the encyclopedia?” “Well, sure we can, darlin’!”

Noticing that… I really need to have a tantrum.

Pondering these words… “In my Father’s house there are many rooms”…I hope I get the one next to my grandma.
From the kitchen… apple sauce, apple crisp; maybe we can eat that the rest of the week, because otherwise, I have no idea
Around the house… Made our family room more hospitable, considerably tidied up the kitchen

One of my favorite things…chocolate.

From my picture journal…

You are greatly missed, treasured woman, but I’m so glad you’ve found His arms.

6 thoughts on “Daybook –26 October

  1. oh dear. i am sorry your hurting so… you can feel in in your words. i hope you find monday to be much, much better than sunday and that when your feeling spent and done and overwhelmed, you will feel His arms surrounding and upholding you.

  2. Lots of hugs to you and your family during this time, and forever. Grieving loved ones never stops, and that's a good thing. I learned this from losing My Momma a year and a half ago…..I wouldn't grieve her so much had we not had so MUCH LOVE between us.

    Remember, Christ calls you blessed and comforted. Matthew 5:4.

  3. You are in my thoughts today. You also make me think of my own dear grandma's who are no longer with us. I always imagined what their funeral days would be like. Would I be beyond consoling? Would I take it ok or would I laugh like they did in Steel Magnolias? I did all those things…and I think that is ok.

    Thanks for being my online friend and I hope each day gets a little less painful.

  4. I am so sorry your grandma is no longer with you. I'm thankful she is in heaven. I lost my grandma nearly 40 years ago and I still miss her. I'm sure I will live close to her because in heaven we will be happy. I've been married 43 years. I just posted the Christian Marriage on my blog. After talking to so many people over the years I can tell you the ones that last are the ones where the people are both committed to the family. I don't think I've ever seen two people living together that can get along. The only way I get along with my husband is to agree with him about everything.I couldn't do that when the children were home because he wasn't always right on how they should be raised. I have a wonderful Christian husband but he is very controlling and he's not happy if he's not in control. The sad part is that he's right most of the time. God gave him to me for a reason. We are not all that happy with one another but we are so happy with our family. I love the picture of your daughter kissing her sister. I pray you will get to feeling better. Doylene

  5. So sorry to hear about your Grandmother, Jessica. I dread that day, as I too am very close to my Grandma. Praying that you find peace knowing she is with Him.

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